Friday, September 25, 2009

Thank You, Alex

It was almost 4 years ago that my son mentioned to me one day that I should write a blog.

"What in the world is that?" I asked him.

He told me it was like having a place of your own, on-line, where you share your thoughts and write about whatever you want to. He kept urging me to do one, to do a blog. I was going to say "Little did he know" but I think it was a lot that he knew.

And then instead of just explaining the blogosphere to me, he went a step further and set this one up- the one you see here. It was all because of my son that I opened up, came out of my shell, and talked to people all over the world about the things in life that confound us, the faith we want to capture for ourselves, and the connections we want to make with people and with God- if only we knew how.

Faith Fuel began because my son introduced me to not only blogging, but the part of myself that I would find here in these blog posts. Sometimes I would start writing about something, not knowing that I was wrestling with it deep inside. Sometimes I would find a great release, like a wind under me lifting me, if I went a little deeper, shared a little more honestly and out loud and here- on this blog.

My son reads this blog and has the posts automatically sent to him every time I update the blog. One thing that I feel truly sad about- about ending this blog soon- is that this connection between my son and I, this on-line connection, is coming to an end.

Maybe in the last couple months, when I first realized I didn't want to continue Faith Fuel anymore, maybe this is why I kept writing, kept pluggin away. It wasn't- and it isn't- a chore. But it is something that has come to an end, to a close. Just like the way my son brought his high school years to a successful close, and is now away, far away, at college.

When he first left for college, it wasn't just deep sadness I felt. It was fear- because I thought I was losing him. I felt the world calling him out of my arms and into its frenzy and its fun. You can't hold a child forever in your arms- even if you can always love him.

I feel sad about ending Faith Fuel only in the sense that I don't want to lose the connections I have made with so many of you. I don't want you to think I am pulling out of your lives. I am, instead, taking a quiet sabbatical, and finding not just my voice again, but the deepest desires of my heart.

My son, Alex, knew, and still knows, about the desire of my heart to encourage others through my writing. I'm so glad he introduced me to blogging, because in reality, he was introducing me to all of you who have visited Faith Fuel.

If you leave a comment today, please leave it for my son. Tell him that you're glad he got me started on blogging. Or tell him that he has a very opinionated mother and how in the world does he stand her?! Or tell him that you wish he could get his mother to be quiet! Or tell him that he's a wonderful, insightful, loving son who makes his Mom smile even when she's holding back the tears.

6 comments:

Mike said...

Thanks Alex! Encourage your Mum to keep writing! Thank you Lauren for all your honesty and commitment :)

Anonymous said...

Your sharing has blessed so many....thank you, thank you, thank you!

K. Frangeskos said...

Hi Lauren,
I am so sorry that you will be stopping your wonderful blog,
FAITH FUEL...

Your site is so encouraging, inspiring and beautiful...
May I ask why you have decided to take a break?

You have been so kind and thoughtful to bestow an award
to my blog,
JESUS KNOWS YOU BEST.

Please keep in touch...and keep me updated by leaving a comment for me on my blog site. I would greatly appreciate it.

God Bless You and I will continue to pray that God guides such a loving and beautiful woman who serves him so well!!!

Sincerely,
K. Frangeskos at
Jesus Knows You Best

LAUREN at Faith Fuel said...

So glad you guys share your comments and thoughts so freely. You all are dear ones.

LAUREN at Faith Fuel said...

K.Frangeskos-
if you read my post on 9/16, "Beginnings and Endings" you'll get a better idea of why I am bringing Faith Fuel to a close soon.

Clarissa said...

Alex, thank you for encouraging your mother to start a blog. Her blog was one of the things that gave me the courage to start my own. So, indirectly, you encouraged me to start one too. Who knows how many others you have encouraged indirectly as well! :-)

Lauren, thank you for your words and sharing of yourself. Your words have been an inspiration ever since I stumbled upon your blog in March of 2008. I wish you the best as you continue on with the next chapter (or is it book?) of your life's journey.